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The Journey of Transformation

More transitions; so what’s new!

September 1st, 2012 at 9:11
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More transitions; so what's new!

So, I am in the mid­dle of more tran­si­tions. Does it ever stop? No, we just get to cruise some­times. I am not in cruise con­trol right now, but in the midst of some heavy traf­fic, con­struc­tion, detours. I need to be on my toes.

My love rela­tion­ship ended ear­lier this sum­mer, due to core dif­fer­ences in our val­ues and world­views, and an ero­sion of good feel­ings between us. It has not been easy, but my busy­ness has cer­tainly helped to dis­tract me from the loss.

I have had lots of com­pany, fun week­end activ­i­ties, a heavy work­load and the process of my father mov­ing from assisted liv­ing to nurs­ing home. It has been hec­tic, chal­leng­ing, reward­ing, fun and draining.

Last week­end I spent 4 days with my team, Sand Shells, as crew at the Susan G. Komen 3-​Day for the Cure in the Twin Cities. It was, as always, mov­ing, inspir­ing, exhaust­ing and exhil­a­rat­ing. My ankles are still swollen and bruised, and I wasn’t even try­ing to walk the 60 miles! I helped to set up and run Pit Stop 3 with my team. We handed out food, water, Nuun (our sponsor’s sports drink) and encour­age­ment. We used the theme, “Wild, Wild Breasts!” If you haven’t been around the 3-​Day, it is quite focused on breasts and hav­ing fun, so plays on words and irrev­er­ent themes rule the day. We had west­ern out­fits and props (even a photo op with a pony!) and got a lot of smiles out of the walk­ers. The spirit and energy of my team­mates was amaz­ing to watch.

The Clos­ing Cer­e­monies, where I was allowed to wear a pink shirt and walk with the sur­vivors, cre­ated feel­ings that are beyond words. The inclu­sion and val­i­da­tion we sur­vivors expe­ri­ence fills my heart up to the brim, and reminds me how pre­cious it is to have come through breast can­cer. There was a moment dur­ing the Walk that I was encour­ag­ing walk­ers with water and thanks, and sud­denly one of them said, “No, thank you, Sur­vivor. Walk­ing three days is noth­ing com­pared to chemo.” She had seen my “Sur­vivor” but­ton. It was so unex­pected and so pow­er­ful that I melted into tears. It made all the sweat, exhaus­tion and body aches worth every minute.

[cap­tion id=“attachment_365” align=“aligncenter” width=“300”]3-day, breast cancer, walk 3-​Day Walkers[/caption]

Ear­lier I had vis­i­tors from Swe­den and spent a week with them. It is a spe­cial thing to show them around the area to which the Emi­grants came and have them get to know their Amer­i­can fam­ily bet­ter. I spent a week­end with one of my best friends, her sib­lings and cousins and had a ball. The laugh­ter and cam­er­aderie were delightful.

I have had a full sched­ule at work, because of tak­ing time off here and there, and fill­ing up the remain­ing spaces with clients. Always feel­ing behind and over­whelmed by paper­work, but man­ag­ing to keep my head above water and give clients what they need from me. At times I have heard pos­i­tive feed­back and have been moved to tears by the growth, insight and relief they express, as well as their gratitude.

Finally, I have just started a new endeavor of teach­ing a foun­da­tional social work class at a local col­lege, St. Cloud State Uni­ver­sity. My first class met this week and I did well, I think. Thanks to a great cur­ricu­lum I inher­ited from oth­ers, and help from sev­eral pro­fes­sors there, I got through it and feel opti­mistic and enthu­si­as­tic to con­tinue it. It does chal­lenge me, though, and I see that I am a stu­dent this fall too, as well as those in my class!

[cap­tion id=“attachment_366” align=“aligncenter” width=“300”]SCSU, St. Cloud State University, Social Work SCSU[/caption]

So, I am in the middle of more transitions. Does it ever stop? No, we just get to cruise sometimes. I am not in cruise control right now, but in the midst of some heavy traffic, construction, detours. I need to be on my toes.

My love relationship ended earlier this summer, due to core differences in our values and worldviews, and an erosion of good feelings between us.  It has not been easy, but my busyness has certainly helped to distract me from the loss.

I have had lots of company, fun weekend activities, a heavy workload and the process of my father moving from assisted living to nursing home. It has been hectic, challenging, rewarding, fun and draining.

Last weekend I spent 4 days with my team, Sand Shells, as crew at the Susan G. Komen 3-Day for the Cure in the Twin Cities. It was, as always, moving, inspiring, exhausting and exhilarating. My ankles are still swollen and bruised, and I wasn’t even trying to walk the 60 miles! I helped to set up and run Pit Stop 3 with my team. We handed out food, water, Nuun (our sponsor’s sports drink) and encouragement. We used the theme, “Wild, Wild Breasts!” If you haven’t been around the 3-Day, it is quite focused on breasts and having fun, so plays on words and irreverent themes rule the day. We had western outfits and props (even a photo op with a pony!) and got a lot of smiles out of the walkers. The spirit and energy of my teammates was amazing to watch.

The Closing Ceremonies, where I was allowed to wear a pink shirt and walk with the survivors, created feelings that are beyond words. The inclusion and validation we survivors experience fills my heart up to the brim, and reminds me how precious it is to have come through breast cancer. There was a moment during the Walk that I was encouraging walkers with water and thanks, and suddenly one of them said, “No, thank you, Survivor. Walking three days is nothing compared to chemo.” She had seen my “Survivor” button. It was so unexpected and so powerful that I melted into tears. It made all the sweat, exhaustion and body aches worth every minute.

3-day, breast cancer, walk

3-Day Walkers

Earlier I had visitors from Sweden and spent a week with them. It is a special thing to show them around the area to which the Emigrants came and have them get to know their American family better. I spent a weekend with one of my best friends, her siblings and cousins and had a ball. The laughter and cameraderie were delightful.

I have had a full schedule at work, because of taking time off here and there, and filling up the remaining spaces with clients. Always feeling behind and overwhelmed by paperwork, but managing to keep my head above water and give clients what they need from me. At times I have heard positive feedback and have been moved to tears by the growth, insight and relief they express, as well as their gratitude.

Finally, I have just started a new endeavor of teaching a foundational social work class at a local college, St. Cloud State University. My first class met this week and I did well, I think. Thanks to a great curriculum I inherited from others, and help from several professors there, I got through it and feel optimistic and enthusiastic to continue it. It does challenge me, though, and I see that I am a student this fall too, as well as those in my class!

SCSU, St. Cloud State University, Social Work

SCSU

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